justnormalme's Blog

I just consumed large amounts of sugar! I really want to take off 20 lbs. I won't beat myself up for giving into my weakness. I realize I will never move forward if I am not easy and forgiving to myself. I know I will overcome this sugar addiction. I know I will lose my 20 lbs.

I realize people don't really change. That's a product of my ever expanding consciousness. I am NOT letting this go! I am listening to myself from now on. And myself is telling me that the only way to live up to my potential is being a LEADER through service. Now, if I am going to have a following some people will undoubtedly get JEALOUS of me. Every good thing has its shadow! So, what should I do? Not lead? Of course not. Now the only question is, how do I lead? Who do I lead?

Good morning world. I am up early as usual. It' 3 years now that I have not had a full time job. My wife and children are asleep upstairs. I am feeling vulnerable.   

Today is another day. At 51 I wonder why I have not achieved the success I desire. But I am married and a good father. Is not that success? That is the best success! So why am I so hard on myself? I have always been hard on myself.  I might be going for a job interview tomorrow. I fear my stressed out look will jeopardize them wanting to hire me. And if they do hire me, I fear my anxious demeanor will make them want to keep me. It's the silent story of my life. I wonder if I can even change it. I have made great strides in my life. I am sure I can continue to.